Its one thing to be looked at because you not matchin or because you acting a fool in public but why you gone stare at me cuz you can't tell if I am a girl or a boy? I dont look like a man in the face. I wear men's clothes, rock braids and have swagg but features wise I dont look like a dude. I've gone into stores where I have spoken first and people still will say."Sir." I don't have a deep voice so that tells me that people aren't listening to me they're just looking at my outer appearence and completely ignoring me as a person. I can understand if I was trying to come off as a man but that's not what I'm trying to do I am just being me. I went to Vegas and I was walkin down the strip with my girl and two dudes that were dressed in construction shit were eating outside one dude calls out,"Hey" repeatedly. Now I don't know about other folks but that not how you get someone's attention hollerin,"Hey" so dude says" I just wanted to tell you your braids look dope and ask you where you got em' done." Now I don't have a problem if he had came at me the right way if he would have said,"Excuse me or something of that nature I would have answered him but now Aye,Hey ,Yo nothing like that. He had the nerve to tell me "You act like you the president ignoring people that's not how we do it in Vegas!" tell me how this grown ass man is this ignorant. Where does it say I have to answer you because your trying to get my attention? How is it that people think that a f*ckin tourist city such as Las Vegas people are just goin to "obey" they stupid asses. Was it because I am a female with a female and you trying step to me cuz you think I'm tryna be a dude? Im not trying to be a dude I have all my parts that God gave me and are very thankful for them. If dudes are that insecure about my appearance my woman i have just one thing to say,Step ya F*ckin game up!!!! I am not your competition if you want want I have work for it the same way I do. This no anti- male blog I have hella male friends that take care of their shit and arent intimidated by females. If I was a dude that situation would have never went down.
Little kids. Man little kids will stare at me so hard they will turn their heads and stop in mid stride to look to see if I'm a boy or girl. Why havent their parents told them don't stare at people let alone grown folks? What the hell? Why do I need to be stared down by little kids who don't have manners? Everyone is different. Nothing can be a definite determining factor that says this is a woman, this is a man because they fit what you want them to look like. I dont feel comfortable in womens clothes. The people who know me will tell you she don't look right as a "girl". If a man can cook that doesn't make him a female or feminine all it means is that he aint gon be hungry when he wants to eat. If a woman can change her car's oil or a flat tire that doesn't make her a man she just has the ability to do things that need to get done. What is people problem with gender? I am not and will wear girls shit I don't even go into female store unless I'm buying somthing with or for my girl. Are you staring because you trying to figure out how you can my swagg? Are you staring because you think I am fine. Whatever the reason its not nice to stare.
I am a huge music fan and I love music that narrates the type of scene or mood I'm in when I wanna be intimate. The month of March has some great releases and I can't stop bumpin' The-Dream and Keri Hilson's new cds. Being a Scorpio I am already a highly sexual individual so if the music is makin me want to get some thats what Im going to do. The-Dream's, "Put It dwn, Fancy, and Sweat it Out" and Keri's, "Slow dance and Make Love," those are my joints matter fact I'm playing them right now. Since high school I would make cassettes (yes I said cassettes im showin my age) and Cds that would set the mood they usually consisted of Aaliyah, Next, Jagged Edge, 112, Missy, 702, Erykah Badu, D'angelo,Ashanti, Blackstreet, Jodeci, SWV, Dru Hill and man just name ppl from the 90s that was poppin' I had em. This blog is takin forever to write bcuz I keepin singin' and dancin and tryna type but Im gonna make it. Have you ever heard a song and imagined if my girl was here what you would do to her her body and how? I'm gonna give you and example Usher has a song,"Seduction," off the Confessions album now visualize: I pick you up from your house the sun is setting and were about to go kick it. Im fitted from head to toe fresh braids, purple button down black wife beat underneath , 501s , J'z, smelling like Lacoste. You lookin so sexy hair down tight shirt, dereon pants and some Af1s (yes I like girls that rock sneakers thanks to Aaliyah) smellin like J'adore. We head to The City (the bay knows what im talkin bout) head to the Castro hit sum clubs on Harrison. When in this one spot and you got me up against the wall your ass all on my zipper. You poppin on me so sexy and and sensual if you keep this up we might be f*ckin on the dance floor. I turn you ass around and have you in the the corner in a lap dance (stud style) I whispered in your ear, "Lets go to the car bcuz your making me so wett." Get in the car turn on the ignition and turn on the heater and press track 2," Freakin you " by Jamie Foxx and I start kissin on your neck you lightly moan I reach over and lay your seat back. Your grabbin on my shirt thats half way unbuttoned and tell me, "Take that shit off," I comply with your request and unbutton your jeans. The windows gettin fogged up but we so gon off the shot of Patron, Long Island Ice teas and Lemon Drops we really dnt know what goin on around us. Usher's song, "Seduction" comes on and im gettin more turned on as you lick on my neck and grab my ass 2 minutes into the song comes on by that pants are off and I'm in my sports bra. Im feeling you drippin dwn my hand and and I am spelling my name with my tongues on your pantyline Im talking bout those kinda moments. Let me know if yall have music that inspires you your inner freak to come out and play?